It is the first day of June and from where I am now, I can feel the raindrops falling on the rooftopâ¦ The cold breeze of the monsoon wind (right?) touching my face while I look out the windowâ¦ Getting wet while walking the streetsâ¦ Lazing on the bedâ¦ and getting a big hug from your loved onesâ¦ these are some of the things I like during the rainy days.
Juneâ¦. Juneâ¦. Just this month, I heard some good news from a college friend. You see, this friend had her first baby when we were in 2nd yrâ¦ I was shocked at first but was touched when I was the first one to know her condition.
Now, I am one of the godparents for her lovely child. I remembered, I always go to her house to visit my âinaanakâ . Days passed, thesis and other research papers came, jobs come and go, I hardly visit their house anymore but I tried my best to keep in touch with them thru text or thru the phone.
Just a few days back was my friendâs birthdayâ¦ I got to chat with another college friend and she told me that our friend had another baby â a baby girl. I texted her, greeting her a happy birthday and asked about my godson. She said that my godson will start studying and will be turning 4 this coming June.
Suddenly a thought came to mindâ¦ am I ready to have a son/daughter? This idea always plays on mind. I think I am old enough to have one but am I mature enough to have one?
I am so proud with women who continues their pregnancy at a young age or women who bore and support a child alone. Itâs a big responsibilityâ¦. And I salute them.
Going back why I wanted to have one at the age of 23 is because I want my child and me to have that bonding. You see, my mom and I have this generation gap, the Iâm-too-conservative-so-you-should-be-too attitude. We always argue about me falling in love and getting into relationships, sheâd always say âBabae ka, maraming mawawala sayo.â Why? Does that mean that men donât lose something when they fall in love? Does that mean we lose a lot because we end up having the responsibility all by ourselves, just in case the man doesnât want to take the responsibility?
I think we gain more than the male species.
We give life. With that life, we will gain a friend, a cheer booster, a shopping partner (if itâs a girl) or a date (if itâs a boy).
Itâs them who lost it. I donât know but that is how I see itâ¦
By the way, who said having relationships would lead us to giving life right?? I hate that kind of thinkingâ¦
Just a few hours back, Rob asked me if I want a baby nowâ¦ My answer?