Iâm in shocked. I was surfing my emails when one mail caught my attention, New friendster message from (S—–). I had to check twice if it was his name.
A few entries back, I mentioned that an old love tried adding me to his friendster list. I ignored his request. I donât think Iâm ready to be friends with him again. Well, it was I who initiated the âconflictâ but he doesnât have the right to hurt me that way or does he?
S (Sorry techie, had to borrow your format in keeping names, I donât want trouble thatâs why) was a friend of a friend. We never thought weâd hit it off because he was a sea farerâ¦ S pursued me and eventually the feelings became mutual. He was nice, a gentleman I could say. He always pampers me â treats me to fancy restaurants, gives me flowers and chocolates, gives stuff toys â the typical boyfriend.
I was excited about himâ¦ We talk over the phone until dawn. As I have said, I believe that communicating with your partner is one of the reasons why a relationship lasts.
I even got the courage to tell my mom that this guy, S, was courting me.
On our fourth month, out of the blue while he was babbling about his trips and his familyâ¦ I thought out loud âIâm beginning to be bored with this relationship.â
I think it was about three oâ clock in the morningâ¦ Silenceâ¦ Dead Airâ¦. I wanted to take back what I said but then I thought, hey that was the truth. He suddenly bored meâ¦. Why? I donât knowâ¦
It was dead air for about 30 minutesâ¦ Then we said our goodbyes.
I still thought it was not a nice way to break upâ¦
Because of the guilt feeling I had, I tried calling him up almost everydayâ¦ but he rejected my callsâ¦ I knew it hurt him. I could also feel the hurt from his sisterâs voiceâ¦ whenever I called and looked for him.
Almost a month past, he called me up. I was relievedâ¦. Then he said his pieceâ¦
âWe have to end this. I guess, you just have to find someone who is richer than me.â Then he hung up. Richer? RICHER? Does being bored with the relationship concerns money??
I had a hard time letting go what he saidâ¦ Damn! Richer? F**ck!
That was almost five years agoâ¦
Now, I am still staring at his friendster messageâ¦ finally reading what I wanted to hear for a long time.
meron lng akong sasabihin sayo.. eee… =) i just have to tel you this… na maatagal ko ng gustong sabihin sayo.. im sorry sa lahat ng nagawa ko sayo.. na nasaktan kita b4 or basta.. lam mo na yun.. sorry
po.. sa lahat.. pero i hope you’ve felt na minahal nmn kita ng totoo.. pero sumobra ata.. kasi kaw una kong g.f. nd ko nasabi sayo yun…
basta im sorry.. im not expecting a friendship from you or whatever.. pero.. i can be a friend to help or hear you laugh wenever u need me..
Now, we have a closureâ¦ after long five yearsâ¦