I don’t know what I am looking for.
Why do we (women though I don’t know if it’s right to assume we all have the same traits) always want to feel secure over a relationship? I mean isn’t cuddling, kissing and hugging enough? Why is there a need to hear your significant other say ‘I love you’… ‘You’re everything to me’ and more?
Isn’t it obvious? Can we not see or feel it when we’re with them? Why the need to hear it? Why do I need to hear it from him? Can I not feel it?
Action speaks louder than words because words can fail you but the hug, the kiss and intensity of your passion can’t be faked.
Why can’t I understand that he chose me? He chose to stay with me, be by my side.
Am I really that naive that he has to profess his love for me every single day? Can I not feel or see that when he wakes me up in the morning because I’m too lazy to get up? Can I not feel it when he cooks for my lunch early in the morning because I forgot to cook last night?
Rob’s dad passed away last March 10. He was suppose to go home. Their PRO (the one who takes care of processing visas, employment contracts, etc) had suggested that they cancel his visa so that it would be easy for him to go and they will just issue him a new one when he’s on his way back. He was told that this process would take 2-3 months or longer.
We’ve discussed it. I want him to go (translation: I don’t want him to go) because it’s been two years and this is his father’s death so he needs to go. Even if I don’t want him to, I know he needs to pay his last respect for his dad.
I’ve arranged everything. About the rent, other expenses, our monthly remittances and all that. However, I can’t help but cry. True, we’ve survived one year being apart and people think if we were able to do that, we can do it again.
Then, he told me he already made up his mind. He decided to stay.
He opted to send money because there were a lot of bills waiting to be paid (e.g the funeral service, the casket, etc) and advise his family of the complications if he was to go home. They understood.
And now, I question him if he loves me? Do you think I need to be slapped or punched to understand what he has done for me?