My mind has been blank for sometime… I think I lost some body and mind coordination when I got sick.
I have been making a lot of errors at work (though I think no one has actually noticed the errors -THANK GOD!)… and I’m still trying to sort out a heap of paper at our house thanks to me (i.e. magazines, newspapers, books and the list goes on and on…)
I need to straighten myself out!
I have decided to take a step… that is to at least accomplish something today… whatever that is, I don’t know but I do hope something will be done…
7 months ago, I had to deal with issues that kind of let me wonder if I should even be here in this country…Now I’m opening up to a new challenge and that is to make ‘new friends’. It’s hard for me… I actually had to think this through. I felt bad that I even have to think about it because who should actually think twice about having friends?
I mean friends are like jewels right? You should embrace and in fact feel privileged that people would want to be your friend.
I find it hard to deal with.
Rob says it should not be the case. He said that I should forget about what happen in the past and start over.
I should not let the past determine my future and in this case, my relationship with other people.
I know I should not but it’s like I have this thought that it might happen again. I would invest a lot on that relationship only for it to be ruined by God knows what?!
But I think Rob is right… I just find it hard to do so.
I hope I will be able to soon (sooner if possible).